So in case you are wondering…yes I was named after Farrah Fawcett. I take pride in that. Farrah Fawcett was a remarkable woman. I can honestly say I always felt stronger for having her name. But not always, by age 27 my life had not turned out exactly how I planned. I married at age 20 and had my first child by age 21 and my second child by age 27. Nine months after my second child was born I was separating from my then husband. I went out on my own creating a new world for myself. I always knew education for me would take me far so I went back to school, graduated with a Bachelors degree which led me to later pursue a masters degree. Everything seemed to be going as planned and I thought I had everything under control.
I had left a negative relationship, obtained more than one college degree, changed my financial situation by getting a better job to take care of me and my kids, but something was still wrong. I had accomplished these things but in my mind, I still felt unsettled and confused about my life. I was still trying to prove myself. I was anticipating other people’s wants, ideas and thoughts of me so I wouldn’t be misjudged or taken the wrong way. I still wasn’t confident.
Living from the outside
I was setting goals for myself that had to do with being accepted by others instead of fulfilling my purpose in life from a higher source. This list I was keeping in my head of how to be and how to act and what to say and what not to say, thinking everything out from end to end to avoid making mistakes so I would not be judged, it was too much! But it all came to a halt one day out of nowhere. I had an anxiety attack…at work…my first one ever…and no one noticed. It was so scary!
I had never had a panic attack before so I had no idea what was going on. My body all of sudden began to shut down, I couldn’t breathe, I was suddenly incredibly hot, my heartbeat sounded like it was outside of my body it was so loud. I could no longer hear the people in my office.
My heart was beating so fast I couldn’t gain control. Something inside of me told me to relax and calm down. This small voice told me to focus on my breath and everything would be fine. The small voice kept repeating this and I followed these instructions. An hour later I was almost back to being normal again. The very people I was trying to meet expectations for did not even notice my anxiety attack. This was definitely my wake up call.
Thriving from the inside
After recognizing this as an anxiety attack and reading more about the symptoms; I realized that I had been having mini anxiety attacks for years unknowingly.
I did not like having this thing looming over me like a dark cloud, just waiting for my next attack. I decided that I was going to figure out why anxiety had been plaguing me for years and how I could control it. This led me to research and understand anxiety and stress, where it stems from and the best way to control it.
Along the way, I learned so much about different practices and resources that promote a way of life that completely changed my thoughts, which ultimately changed how I saw my life. I felt empowered and in control. Changing my thoughts resulted in me meeting goals I am actually passionate about, removing negative self-talk and removing mental blocks and increasing my confidence .
Empowered to help others
I have invested in learning and continue to learn about mindfulness, meditation, energy psychology and higher consciousness in relation to obtaining goals and living a purposeful life. My goal is to educate and empower women to progress through life successfully living their purpose without the negative outside influences we tend to focus on. You have everything you need to live your purpose, the focus starts within.
Empowerment comes via responsibility. I am a Life coach in Dallas, Tx that focuses on helping women take a holistic and mindful approach to:
- Controlling anxiety
- Stress management
- Removing negative self talk/thought patterns
- Successful co-parenting
- Empowerment after a divorce/relationship
- Finding your purpose in life
When you take the responsibilty to understand and commit to being better you acheive empowerment.
“You wanna fly, you got to give up the shit that weighs you down.”
― Toni Morrison,